pages/life.md

# Life
my life updates and **about myself** 

# 2024 
## Dec
### I see something more in me...... better
Past weeks I atleast saw that I am capable of doing shit that I desire. I just need to go all in, I have to remeber that all the strength is inside me. Whenever feeling lost, anxious, tired remind. I have to remind myself that Everything is inside me, all the tools to tackle this situation, doesnt mean I will become fun...... It means it will become more tolerateable.

**Listen Me** shit is hard but remember, u have high expectation from urself. Be the man u truly are. Work endlessly because that is the only thing now that can save u, pure hard work. All the best sir

### Somehow got more fucked!!
Busy with life shit, Finally some work has been done. But barely gaming, my target of 5 lays is not possible this year I conclude but what I can say is that...... nothing. There is no lesson I m just lazy. It sucks, 19 days left in this year.

## Oct
### So basically everything is Fucked in my life!
I am unemployed, haven't had sex in 1.5 yrs. I am trying to get laid using daygame, my verbals are good infact everything is good. The thing is I am just wasting my time and life. I just go out with wings niether they approach nor I. I think what happened is that I just enjoy roaming around with a freind, I have gotten so comfortable to that idea, its almost gay if u think about it. I barely hangout with my real freinds one on one, we generally go out in group. But I have hangout one on one with so many wings.  

Its so fucked, I don't have money niether a pulling place. So no oyo, logistic itself can be very benefitary, for example if u have a pull place in south delhi everything is near urself hot girls, cafe, hangout spots. I live in a suburb of delhi.
My house is only free till 1 pm from morning, so here is my plan  

Get girls number using daygame (which I can only go 2 times a month) then inviting them straight to house then having a time constrained exit, its all sounds immpossible, but I believe myself that I m the MAN and will do whats necessary  

91 days left this year, I want atleast 5 lays. I am done postponding myself, I want to get this problem sorted this year
I believe myself that this is achievable  




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